A Successful Day, And One To Emulate
Today was a successful day. And I don’t know how many of these I can string together, but I will make the attempt. Writing things like this, patting oneself on the back, celebrating these victories, it isn’t the norm for me. It feels...well, I don’t want to call it anything, because I appreciate this behavior in others, but can’t seem to stand it in myself, which is strangely hypocritical, like I believe I am above it. What I fear is that in feeling good about the small things, it takes away from the big things, but in all honesty, I never stopped to celebrate the big things that I’ve accomplished. I think the measuring stick for my joy in achievement has been directly proportional to the success those achievements have yielded, which isn’t much. And therefore, the work continues, and I strive, steadfast and even-keeled, and afraid to bask in days like this. Days where I nail the complex and the simple things, from setting up a mailing list for my website, to querying agents for both my feature and pilot screenplays, to practicing Japanese, to plotting out the first season of my podcast, to remembering to take my multivitamin. If I have more days like this, there will be nothing I can’t achieve.
Isn’t that so strange? To acknowledge the effectiveness of a day in comparison to others, recognizing the value in it, yet still treating the result of it with disinterest and apathy? But this is a way to break with that type of behavior, by acknowledging it here, so hurrah to growth and attempts at allowing oneself to breathe and expand and sit in honesty of the moment, rather than reduce and trivialize real work.
Anyhow, there are three things more for me to do, and each of them is icing on the cake. One is this blog. The next is a bit of a book report which will be a regular occurrence that will also go on my blog. The third is digging into the first chapter of the novella I aim to write and turn into an audiobook (perhaps even a graphic novel could happen). There is a fourth, but I have no mind for it today. It is to dive back into a Python bootcamp that I haven’t touched in two weeks. It is a course that I am halfway through, but I know that “diving back in” also means backtracking some to refresh any memories that have wilted during the holiday break.
So, I will continue my night by completing and scheduling the release of my book report, and then, once that’s done, begin my novella. I’m very excited for it. I think it will open with a soothsayer orating the future for an interested party, and it is there that we will continue with the rest of the story. It feels like a cool way to begin this one.